Tired of the games u play, why can't you let me be. If you only knew how it makes me feel, if you could only see. As life goes on i begin to find that you've done this thing before. Just when I was happy you made me strive for something more. Now that I am older, I see I have no choice. I must remain and take the blame and do nothing cuz its right. This world that you have planned for me, a new and daring path. Can you promise it will be just as if it were the last? Can you swear to me that people will be true and there for me? Can you say that friends will always care and speak the truth they see. The only thing that keeps me sane, my peace of mind in life. Is that the way to yesterday will remain strong in my life. The people who still care for me will always have a place. The only price that comes with the ride is the age that they must face. So now I say to the thing I hate, which destroyes the world i know. If you can make the new one as good, I'm willing to give it a go.

Ever notice you sometimes sell people short. I feel i sometimes do this with some of my close friends. Like leah- i mean i LOVE this girl, but im always saying how steph is and always will be my best friend and she just argrees with me. But any time I EVER hang out with her we always have the best time. I mean i could call her up soo randomly and say "lets hang out-tonight for instance- and she just says um-let me check..5 seconds later..yeah sounds great. SOOO what are we doing?" I mean i LOVE that. She doesn;t even know what were doing half the time but just says yes cuz...well i don't really know why she says it- but she does. Granted i do love my steph and she still will always be my best friend, but i think my leah might be gaining alittle more status in my mind. She has always been there for me over the years and we have grown emensly close. And now that were going to college and are only going to be less than 2 hours away from each other, i am beginning to think that this is just the beginning of the great and everlasting friendship that is already existing between us. So leah, im sorry i never realized how much u really mean to me, and I will always be there for you no matter what. It friends like US that gotta stick together.

LOVE YA 4EVER!!!

 ASomeone once told me that you should be able to count your best friends on one hand, because if you cant- not all of them are your best friends. These days im really finding out who they are, who theyve always been. Party after party I attend, a little clock in the back of my mind begins to tick. A time bomb about to explode. Highschool was my life...well my friends were my life and highschool just contained us. I may be young but i can honestly say they were the best years of my life. Good friends that stuck by me. Thats whats going to be so hard. Some of them i have accepted letting go of, but others...i simply cant bring myself say goodbye to. It seriously breaks my heart to know that I wont be able to say "i need to see you" and have them be minutes away. The hugs and the tears and the "I will never say goodbye" just dont seem to make the fact that I have to sit and watch my best friend drive 6 hours away from me and theres nothing i can do about it. Of course this isnt the end- far from it, and there will be visits and hours and hours of phone calls, but its still not going to be the same as laying on the big couch next to you watching a movie or laughing about something that we saw or heard...or did. Out of all the things i've ever had to do...this will be the hardest i think. Leaving the one that knows me the best....Leaving my world behind

 I could cry....

And with the flow of wind, a voice is swept away. Into a place thats far away, a land where we can no longer stay. Into a place that will never be, somewhere that we will never see. A place we can imagine but never feel. But in our hearts we know its real. An echo of it soon returns, whispers all of what its learned. Now the truth of mystery is released for all the world to see. A truth of sorrow forever lost. A life of sadness turned to dust. The voice of promise, a world of peace, that was always there for us to see. If you would only open your eyes....